Cancer Season: Walking to the Edge of the Earth
Updated: Jul 30, 2022
If you made it out of Cancer season unscratched, I salute you. If Astrology is not your thing, Cancer is the natural ruler of the 4th house, Home and Family, running from June 21st through July 22nd. If you are unfamiliar with water signs, Cancer will force you to swim deep in your emotions. If you were swimming peacefully in a river, now you are swimming for your life against the current.
If you are looking for happy words and thoughts, stop here. This is not the blog post for you. And that is more than ok.
I certainly did not make it out of Cancer season unscratched. I am still processing emotions and accepting lessons from it. As a matter of fact, I am not the same person at all. I may look the same, but I do not feel the same. I learned the hard way in June, a very challenging month, through drastic ups and downs and a sense of not being able to get a handle on my emotions. I had this feeling that my heart was breaking. My heart chakra was exploding indeed.
I flew to Miami the first week of July seeking the love of my closest friends and family, a love that would replace the lack of self-love and self-respect I had abandoned by giving too much of myself. The little girl on the right is my 5-year-old Self, a girl who felt unloved and abandoned. The woman on the left is learning that there are days when laughter will come so easy, and no matter what, she will never abandon her 5-year-old Self. So I arrived at my mom's place with a purpose; to find this photo and look into the eyes of this little girl who was experiencing heartbreak. I love both just the same and I embrace the little girl who has struggled as an adult in truly understanding her worth purposely.
Just like I dreamt during my spiritual awakening. Today, I purposely walk again to the edge of the Earth (yes, I know the Earth is not flat) and release with love and compassion all fear of abandonment, lack of self-worth, sentiments of not being enough, shame, guilt, and anger. I release them with the most profound gratitude as they have taught me the hardest lessons. I release past versions of me I created to please other people. I release my inability to speak up because I was afraid of how I may sound. I release with an open heart past cycles where I over gave to others. I release you.
I will forever continue to walk to the edge of the Earth to release what no longer serves me. And so it is.
What would you walk to the edge of the Earth for?
See you next time.
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